Like a memory

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When we try to remember a memory, our brain will change it through the pass of years, almost as if it was just a dream that you lived before, because we will lose the definition, or forget about the details that compose that memory, as we grow old.
Since I can remember, I always felt this need of making journals about some periods of my life, or to make photo albums, or to even keep the tickets of the movies I saw, or the concerts I went, or even the transport tickets that took me to some nice place.

This is not a project about the destruction of my memories, it is about the erosion of some memories, that are important for me, that I’m afraid to forget. I would call this intervention a transformation of my memories.

So I used my family archive pictures, and some frames of old cassettes from my parent’s films, they represent some moments of my childhood that I don’t want to lose somehow in my mind.
I know that pictures are for remember those moments, and I remember them, but not completely, I just have an idea of them. I guess that, the thing that scares me the most is when I think about the people of my family who passed away, I don’t remember well the way they used to laugh, for example, or the way those hugs felt like. I’m afraid to forget about the people, the memories I have of them.

-But if you want to remember, why do you want to destroy them?

I don’t want to destroy them, I just want to represent them as the way I see it in my mind, of when I try to remember those moments. To make you get a deeper look about the way I feel about this. It’s all about the details, I just want to remember the details.

Cláudia Ferreira